Monday, May 7, 2012

that will tumble and tear apart

you know, it takes a lion's heart to make it through this life.

to make it through the day-in, day-out hustle and bustle. the suppers around the table. the late nights in front of the television. the shared smiles between family. the inside jokes. the traditions.

it's all so beautiful. and fleeting. and those two juxtaposed thoughts just about break my little heart. the passing beauty. the seasonal joy.

i was looking at photo albums over at my grandpa's over the weekend. he stopped making albums after my grandma died, so there are no pictures past 2003. i looked at my 16-year-old self and thought gosh, i wish you would have taken it in more. breathed in those people more. because now they're aging and changing at a rate you never imagined and that july fourth was the perfect chance to hug each of them.

but this lion will persevere. and love. and in doing both, live this broken life to the fullest.

10 comments:

Daydream Living said...

Sweet Courtney,
I hope you will find the strength you need at this time... your words are, even in this time, oh so beautiful put together.
All the best,
Maureen x

Chelsea said...

Beautiful words.. and so terribly true.

Ana Magdalena said...

I am sending happy thoughts your way my sweet friend. I am sure God will guide you with His strength during this tough time.

Hugs!

Ana Magdalena said...

I know this is totally out of context but I can't stop thinking about the sweet love your grandparents shared. A love so strong --he had no desire in recording memories past her life. How beautiful it is that she was able to mark a before and after in her husband's life, and that he was able to love her in such a pure way.

Eleanor at Mirror Of My World said...

hey courtney
such beautiful thoughts but also so sad, hope youre doing ok today.
remember that we are all here for you!
eleanor x

Michelle said...

I know exactly what you mean! My grandparents are sick and thousands of miles away. I spent yesterday evening looking through old photo albums as well and thinking the exact same things! Sending prayers and a hug :)

Amber said...

I tend to think the same thing when I see old photos. I hope one day I can truly live in the moment.

Thisisme. said...

Life IS fleeting my friend. It is SO important to let those that we love, know just how much we love them, and to hug them whenever we can . In our busy lives, we must make time for our family and friends and make sure that we spend time with them, or talk to them on the phone, or even send them an e-mail, for one day they will no longer be there. That thought saddens me so much.

chambanachik said...

I think the same thing every single time I think of my grandparents, who all passed away years ago. I think it still with my parents, and I think it's good to remember.

Anna Kristianne said...

Dearest Courtney,

You have a way of writing that deeply touches my heart to its core! Whenever I read your writing, it's as if I am reading a beautiful poem and understanding every words in it.

This post filled my eyes with tears, but they were good tears. I am grateful that now my life too is filled with moments I want to cherish and hold on to. God has done this for me.

Praying for you and your lion heart!

Love,

Anna

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