Tuesday, May 22, 2012

if this were 03 and we were sixteen


if this were 03 and we were sixteen, i would look with anticipation to july and august. those balmy months spent without worry or school or stress or timelines. i would propose that we hop in the back of that old pickup with a box of chinese food and galllon of sweet tea. drive deep into the back fields where the wheat is knee high.

i would say, let's just drive. to your mama's or mine. to the gas station for slushies. to the golf course where you can break your third fishing rod in the weeds and tangles of the grown-up pond. i would sleep late and wake up with my hand still on the phone where we hung up only hours before.

if this were 03 and we were sixteen, i would look at you. you with your floppy hair and crooked smile. your ambition and wit. i would breathe you in and capture for good the feel of the fraying cloth seats in your volkswagon van. remember, i would tell myself. remember when the sun was setting and he was resting against the car beside you, his legs over yours, leaning back sipping on limeade.

i would bottle those times, because they were special and sacred and seasonal.

but this is twenty twelve and we are in another summer. we are older and different, but if it's possible, more in love. your hands are stronger from years of turning wrenches and tightening bolts. my hair is longer and i've noticed my knees are popping more than usual and it takes longer to stretch to touch my toes.

we've grown, you and i. oh, 03 was magnificant. it was the year of not too much, except that our little lives intersected and were forever changed. and they are still changing. ebbing and flowing and waning and growing.

even if the most romantic thing i can do for you sometimes, like last night when everything just felt like Too Much, is just bring you water in bed. know i do it with as much romance and ardor as when i leaned against you that night in the pickup and told you, "i get you." or that time at the alter i said, "i do."

i still get you, my dear. and i still do.

17 comments:

Caroline said...

beautiful <3

Kira said...

So sweet!

jeanette from everton terrace said...

Just Lovely.
The picture is a treasure, and I'm sure will only become more treasured as the years go on.
I have a daughter your age and am continuing to fall in love with my husband all the time. I hope that will never stop. What a special gift it is. May you continue to do so for all your days.

larisaa said...

I love this so much! You have known each other for so long. So special.

Ana Magdalena said...

Oh my dear friend, you have such a way with words. It's so cute that you guys found each other at a young age!

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

so beautiful- I often think of the boy that I met when I look at the man I am married to-

wildchild said...

oh wow. i have tears. summers are the time of love, and even 3 years into this relationship, this summer is going to look a whole lot different than our first. for one, we're getting married (!), but also, there's more responsibility looming ahead. but regardless, those easy romantic gestures are enough. getting him water in bed and scratching his back while he falls asleep is enough. and, in a way, it shows that we get them even more than we did way back then.

Amber said...

ahhh to be young and in love :)

kate said...

this is so beautiful it made me cry. so perfect in so many ways. the romance. the love. the fact that summer loves dont have to end after just one summer. im so glad you found robert and that after all this time you are still in love.

<3
wonderful.

Jennifer Rod said...

this is so beautiful! I have no words...

Amy @ AGirlCalledBeloved said...

This is so beautiful! I love that you were high school sweethearts! You need one big scrapbook of all your blogposts.

Oh and I have a new blog name and URL! :)

A Girl Called Beloved

ash said...

this gave me chills. for real. to have a memory like yours. what a gift to remember such sweet times so well.

oh, & you look exactly the same.

Patty said...

This was so beautifully and poetically written. Much love to you and your dear, so in love! Thank you for sharing the lovely story :)

Melissa Kiefer said...

you inspire me, darling. your blog is my very favorite. you make me feel, remember, and come alive. thank you. <3

Cara-Mia said...

Absolutely beautiful.

Alli said...

Beautiful! So glad to see that while things change some of the best parts of life stay just as perfect, even while being a little different from the past!

chambanachik said...

So lovely.

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