Tuesday, July 24, 2012
on being human, discussions with myself at midnight
but at midnight i was still awake and my mind was still pacing furiously. the awful events of last friday. the last movie i saw in a theater. my pup asleep at my heels. how hard i made him walk in the evening heat. the ensuing guilt. robert's whisper soft slip of breath on the pillow to my left. such is the fodder of a dark bedroom when you're the only one awake.
eventually sleep came, followed by a late morning. an afternoon in the coffee shop, my headphones on high and my nose burried in journal articles.
all of this to say that i have been feeling incredibly human as of late. incredibly fragile and breakable and fallen.
and there are nights like last night and days like last friday when it's this tenderness that just breaks my heart. but then there are moments that change everything. like on my morning drive when i saw two birds run into the sky just moments before my honda cut through the air. i watched them ascend into the sunrise, this life redeemed. and it was my humanity for which i was the most grateful.
Posted by vintch at 1:58 PM