Tuesday, November 29, 2011

a real world christmas


it was cold that night, and dark.

there were no rooms and people were rude. they were lost, lonely and scared.

on a bed of straw, huddled near livestock. not the ideal way to bring a savior to the world. not the ideal place for anything, really. the birth was flawed, riddled with unexpected setbacks, disappointments and heavy-hearted fatigue. in an age where lead-based paint is feared, the floor of a barn seems an unimaginable substitute for a hospital. but for all its human shortcomings, what a divine, precious perfection. it was real, hay bales and all. the face staring back a marriage of the human and the holy. yes, it was not quite as imagined, but in its very essence, the realness, the grit and dirt and sweat of Jesus' birth is what makes it endearing, special and sacred.

i find comfort in that. in the realization that God wants the soil of our lives, the grimy undercore of our souls, to plant the seed of faith. life is messy and tragic and altogether hard sometimes, but it's also so blessedly beautiful.

we took christmas pictures on sunday. from the moment i slipped on my dress, it just felt wrong. it was windy. and cold. and pablo was preoccupied with the cat running behind the deck. my hair was laying weird and i picked my skirt on the wooden bench. we argued about dog placement and portrait vs. landscape. about self timer length and background location. seven pictures later, we settled on a semi-focused, semi-centered one that will suffice, and ordered thirty.

this picture sort of sums it all up. we were frustrated, ill and tired with each other. i was tempted to send these out as the final picture, a nice detour from the typical, posed shots that line our fridge.

because this picture represents real life. it was not ideal. actually, nothing went according to plan. but it was real and honest and rooted in love. and in the end, the chaos gave way to beauty. much like that birth, i suppose.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

I absolutely love this, Courtney! I think it's one of my favorite blogs you've written. Love the reminder that life isn't perfect!

~Tiffany
http://tiffanyd22.blogspot.com

Emma Frances said...

I love this. I love how you related Christ's birth to how God accepts us in all of our 'messiness'. And the picture is pretty funny. :)

Gentri said...

Aw! I love this. :) I know it wasnt perfect but it's beautiful all the same!

ruthy ann said...

wow...you absolutely have a way with words. I love your transparency (and this photo). thanks for sharing your heart.

Emily said...

so beautiful! and i like your picture, its real :)

chambanachik said...

Realness is the most beautiful thing. This was a wonderful post that reminded me of that!

Amber Blue Bird said...

i have a lot of photos like this usually of me with a sourpuss face on while Kevin has his hand on forehead trying to massage his headache. Reality isnt always pretty but its real and if we look hard enough we can usually find beauty in any situation.


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jeanette from everton terrace said...

I love Christmas cards like this. I have a friend who puts the funniest photos of her family on theirs and I look forward to them every year. I find those things that aren't exactly as I imagined are often better.

Kristina said...

What a honest post!! That moment captures what many of us in marriages and relationships completely understand. We have those moments, the frustrations, even when we least expect them!

Erin said...

Love your honesty and sweet heart for God! I always enjoy coming over to your blog and reading your beautifully written and inspiring posts! :)

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Love this!

charla beth said...

beautiful.
i love your transparency.

soo thankful that He makes miracles out of our messy.

kate said...

messy life is so beautiful and while its chaos sometimes is overwhelming...its when we are truly living. and THAT is beautiful. i love this picture and i love how this post began. such a wonderful way to describe it. love this.

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