Thursday, April 14, 2011

hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away

baby flower buds are one of my favorite things in the world. stretching their little faces toward the sunshine. there are few more innocent, simple things. and i always watch for it. wait for green leaves to open and reveal their treasures. that's why monday night was disheartening.

i was walking behind our house, picking up sticks from the storm, when i noticed it. at first, it was only a glimmer. a tinge of magenta against brick. then i walked closer and saw it. our azalea bush. pregnant with beautiful blooms. the bush that was here when this house's original owners were. the one they planted in the ground. and i missed its opening act. and it's strange, but something so beautiful stirred in me such a sadness.

that life's going by like a movie, and i'm stuck in the theater holding stale popcorn. sometimes it just hits me. how breathtaking, achingly beautiful this life is. and how often i'm indoors. how the azalea put on a show for me and i missed all but the finale.


so i went to the store. i bought some little red begonias. with tiny buds just starting to bloom. i planted them and put them on the windowsill, where i can watch them every morning.

and morning by morning, the soul returns.

19 comments:

TNK said...

i stumbled upon your beautiful blog the other day, and had to start following it! i'm sure you've heard this many a time, but you are quite the writer and i truly enjoy reading your posts!

Elizabeth {e tells tales} said...

Such a beautiful post...our azalea bush is about the size of yours and right by the front door so I never miss it.

Ana* said...

what a beautiful view from the window.

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

I love growing things in my house- plants, flowers, kids, pets- all of it fills my soul.

Lovely post- I just found you on twitter the other day- I'm byladyren

Baily Jones said...

My favorite GRATEFUL DEAD song... "Scarlet Begonias" - and there ain't nothing wrong with the way she moves, or scarlet begonias, or a touch of the blues...

You'll dig it :)

pickingwildflowersblog.blogspot.com

Cat said...

Oh...girl, you hit that nail on the head...working inside at an office everyday leaves me with that "stuck with stale popcorn" kind of feeling too! It is getting to the point that I am a bit envious of highway construction workers cause at least they are outside enjoying the Springy goodness!

Love your indoor flowers...my mom just bought me tulips for my birthday...they haven't bloomed yet but it is a joy to watch them work at it each morning :)

Mo Pie, Please said...

Bringing outdoors indoors is so good for the soul. It gets me through it all!

kimbirdy said...

aw, i love your little window full of plants. if only i were better at keeping plants alive. it really spoils the joy-of-life feelings when you kill those little baby blooms. i'll just enjoy yours from a safe distance. :) for me it's the sunshine of LA. i missed out on a lot of sun living in san francisco all those years, so i am now soaking it up and i feel the same way about missing the beauty of life when i remain shut up indoors. the earth is alive, and so am i!

Meri said...

Gorgeous! I am so so anxious for things to start blooming here in MN! I've seen about 4 flowers this year :)

Diana Mieczan said...

That is such a beautiful post and I also love watching my plants grow and blossom:) Have a fantastic afternoon, my dear

Daydream Living said...

Hi Courtney,
you said it so right, life goes super fast, enjoy the blooming!
Maureen x

Blondie's Journal said...

I hope you get out more and more as the weather warms up. I didn't know that some of my daffodils had bloomed until I walked out back the other day, and all this time I was moaning that nothing was blooming!!

Mark the date on your calender and you won't miss the buds next year! Love your begonias! :-)

XO,
Jane

the southern hostess said...

Such a beautiful post. We miss all of life's smallest treasures sometimes, don't we?

Consider The Lilies said...

this is a beautiful post :) i just planted my very first pots last weekend and i am so excited to watch them grow!

melissa said...

This is an absolutely beautiful post. I love your perspective on life. Amazing. And those Begonia's are stunning. Great photos. They are going to be so beautiful as they continue to bloom! xx

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

You have such a beautiful way with words

Tiffany said...

Seriously, you have a gift with this writing of yours! Amazing!

~Tiffany

chambanachik said...

That is the best solution. And it means flowers everywhere, which is always a lovely thing.

Courtney B said...

Beautiful! I don't know why, but I've never thought to plant flowers and put them in my windows! I'm totally going to this...until we have a yard!

Post a Comment

thank you for stopping by! have a blessed day:)